Sunday, August 17, 2008

Racial harmony?

It's sad. I'm still having a brain block. I wonder what happened? Could be due to all those rubbish I've been reading in the papers about university students protesting against some new proposal by the Selangor Menteri Besar. Somehow this piece of news was reminiscent of the US historical scene where the people protested against admitting minorities into certain establishments. Surely that can't be happening in peaceful Malaysia where all the races live together in harmony, right? Er, right?


And yet, in a different arena, there's the Olympics. The whole of Malaysia is rooting for Lee Chong Wei as he gets ready for the final showdown against Lin Dan in badminton. (At the time I am writing this, there are still a few more hours before the finals starts.) In this particular scene, it's heartening to see that race has nothing to do with it. I could imagine all those protesters putting down their badly-scrawled banners and angry fists (and pitch forks?) to sit down in front of the telly to cheer for Chong Wei. Wouldn't that be ironic?


Or maybe I'm just wishing. It could be that massive brain block - I'm not thinking straight...

Saturday, August 09, 2008

Of Kangkungs, Evolution and Masochism

I have got a writer's block. And when I can't write, I read. Or sing. Or play. Or whatever. Here's a list of things I've been up to. If you should care to know (OK, I'm a bit moody too).

1. The War between the Theory of Evolution and Creationism. Can't Science and Religion go together? (My thoughts: Science is just man's way to figure out God and his works.)

2. Adultery. No, I'm not going through this in real life. But I've been reading this book "Fourplay" by Jane Moore, and I can't help feeling rather depressed. There was not only one, but at least THREE instances where adultery was committed. If this was real life, I'd rather not live. (Didn't I tell you I am moody?) This should teach me to resort to chick lit. Give me murder or sci-fi please...

3. I've been learning to play the keyboard by myself. I found a cool site where I can download those kiddy piano sheet music and have been teaching myself songs like "Silent Night", "Joy to the World", "Fur Elise". Just don't ask me to play for an audience yet unless you've got a masochistic streak in you. You have been forewarned.

4. Phlegmy Flamingo. Ian Phlegming. Nuff said.

5. Punny Pun Pundit. Puny Punner.

6. Nasi kangkang. Kangkung kangkang.

I better end here before my brain walks out in protest. Till next time.

Friday, August 01, 2008

Picture Perfect?

~ Random shots of beauty ~



Colmar


KL Tower


Kudat



Pulau Sapi



Subang


Subang II


Damansara

Disclaimer: I don't have a digital camera. All the shots were taken with a pathetic 1.3 mega pixel phone camera. Amateurish, yes? But the gorgeous skies kinda made up for it...

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Thank God for Pokok Pintu

Pokok Pintu = Door Tree = Daughtry.

Geddit? ;-P



They are simply amazing. Both Daughtry and the Power of Prayer. It took me weeks of SMSing and telephoning radio stations (Hitz.fm) and TV stations (8TV) for tickets to watch Daughtry perform live at 1 Utama. There was no other way to get the tickets besides buying a Sony Ericsson Walkman phone or their music accessories. I went like, Whhhhhaaaat?! I would have been willing to BUY a ticket the NORMAL way, thank you very much.

But all my effort was to no avail. So I kept praying. And believe it or not, deep down, a little voice told me I would get the tickets somehow. But it whittled down to only 1 more day and still no signs of the ticket. I was about to give up hope when out of the blue an old old pal called me up and offered me FREE TICKETS to watch Daughtry! (Thanks, Su Sern!)

And they were no ordinary tickets: they were VIP tickets. See, when you ask God for something and when you don't get it immediately, it's because He has got something even better in store! When He gives, He gives abundantly and exceedingly.



To cut the whole story short, Daughtry was simply EXPLOSIVELY amazing! The VIP tickets were Godsent because it drizzled - and the pavillion sheltered us from the rain. And there was free food and drinks. And I was surrounded by wonderful friends. I could not have asked for more.

So this is my testimony to the awesome Power of Prayer.


~Thank you God!~

Monday, July 21, 2008

Speed

I just discovered I was born to be a racecar driver. Just the other day I had to drive a few friends to the Subang airport and they were already late for their flight. I found myself weaving in and out of traffic as I floored the accelerator till my poor 1.1cc Kia Picanto (nicknamed Orange) groaned in protest. I loved the thrill and the adrenaline rush as we zoomed towards our destination, with the clock ticking away. There were also times when certain skills were required to manoeuvre bumps and bends at high speed, and to squeeze in between huge lumbering lorries and I must say I did pretty good.

I lurched into a stop when we arrived at Terminal 3. I could almost hear Orange sigh in relief. Or was it my friends? Speaking of those poor kiddos, they jumped out of the car with their bags and rushed into the airport as if they were in the Amazing Race and it was the last leg. Or maybe they were just in a hurry to get as far away from the car as possible.

They were already 5 min past the closing time for check-ins, but still managed to get through. Phew… I gave my Orange a pat for a job well done and drove home in a much saner speed.

Too bad Keanu didn’t jump in for the ride.

Friday, July 04, 2008

Home

Statement # 1: The Purpose Driven Life is a really insightful book. I believe I grew up a lot spiritually reading that book in the 40 days as was recommended.



Statement # 2: Home by Daughtry is a damn good song. The words keep morphing into different significances since I first heard it last year.
So what do The Purpose Driven Life and Home have in common?

#1
Here is a summary from Chapter 6 of the book: “What on Earth Am I Here For?” We are here on Earth only as ambassadors. This world is not our ultimate home. The things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we can’t see now will last forever.

We may experience hardship, sadness, and rejection in this world. Some of God’s promises seem unfulfilled, some prayers seem unanswered, and some circumstances seem unfair. But this is not the end of the story of our life. We are not home yet. At death, we won’t leave home – we’ll go home. Home that is of a heavenly kind, where we can expect God’s promised reward in eternity for those who are faithful to Him.

#2
Which brings us to Daughtry. When Home came out last year, I thought it was such a beautiful song. It was so inspiring that it stuck in my mind as I made my way up Mount Kinabalu, determined to reach the top at all cost. (It must have been the words: “The miles are getting longer it seems, the closer I get to you.”)

And I always sing it whenever I miss my family back in Penang. Then there is also that aspect of a loved one who has strayed too far and coming back home. (“I’ve not always been the best man or friend for you, but your love remains true and I don’t know why, You always seem to give me another try.”)

#1 + #2:
So when I read The Purpose Driven Life a couple of months ago, the lyrics of the song leapt into my mind, but in a slightly different sense. (Home! Our eternal home!)

I’m going to the place where love
And feeling good don’t ever cost a thing,
And the pain you feel’s a different kind of pain.

Chorus: I’m going home, Back to the place where I belong, And where your love has always been enough for me.


Gosh, this sure gives a different meaning to the song, doesn’t it? I'd always thought Daughtry rocks! Now he rocks in a whole different sense as well.

Anyhoo, I've learnt that if life is getting you down, just remember to focus on God. Your time on earth is not the complete story. You must wait until home/heaven for the rest of the chapters. And like another Daughtry single: It’s Not Over!

Monday, June 23, 2008

spirit revived


i had been in woe
didn't know what to do
i felt abandoned
trampled and in despair.


with every step i took
the grounds shook below
for every shelter i sought
the walls were overgrown.


faces blurred into space
honey into bile
and the brook once flowing
hardened into cold cold ice.


but fear not said a voice
and i reached out for His hand
my thirst was quenched
and my spirit revived.


my palms were filled
my shoulders unburdened
peace and hope renewed
and in faith i will soldier on.


"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."
Philippians 4:13


Friday, June 20, 2008

FICTION: The Unexpected Visit

There is a saying that writers of crime fiction are usually mild-mannered (and sane) people. Usually. I guess that is because they have a very useful and effective outlet to vent. The story below was written about five years ago. It was indeed a great outlet for me. I hope you will like it.
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The Unexpected Visit
by
Lee Su Ann
(Copyrights 2008 reserved)
The clock strikes six when he reaches home. His girlfriend will be here in an hour’s time. He is just about to take off his tie when the doorbell rings. He raises his brows. She can’t possibly be here already?

He opens the door and stares at the person standing outside.

She smiles. And before he can say a word, she steps in, gently brushing past him into the living room. He is a little surprised to see her. Okay, maybe more than a little – he is overly shocked.

She smiles again ever so sweetly as she hands him a bouquet of flowers.

He blinks with incredulity. Flowers? How unusual for her to be bringing him flowers. But he, ever the gentleman, thanks her and takes the flowers.

He faces her. “What are you doing here?” he asks, his forehead creasing earnestly. His eyes shoot a quick look at his clock. His girlfriend will be there in an hour.

She saunters around the living room with a satisfied look. She has a glint of the wild cat in her eyes that he has never seen before. She says bitterly, “Of course, now that we are no longer lovers doesn’t mean I have no right to come visit you here?”

He chuckles slightly despite himself. He can feel it. Something about her is different today. She just does not seem herself at all. Her voice has a sparkly laughing tune to it, her eyes brighter than usual, her steps light and graceful. And the flowers… it doesn’t make any sense at all.

They have hardly been keeping in touch after the break-up, and now here she is, at his apartment, dressed in sexy little red dress that cling snugly over her curves and the hem flows flirtingly at her thighs. And he has never seen her wear dresses before.

Suddenly she comes forward to him and touches his face. He jolts. Her touch is cold, but gentle and there is something about it that is soothing. Calming. And that makes him uncomfortable. He tries to take his eyes away from her face. Her brick red lips came within inches from his own before she takes her hand away. She laughs enigmatically and pulls away.
She disappears into the bedroom. He walks slowly, cautiously there.
Whatever that is left of the daylight peeps in through the window and dances on her flowing black hair. She almost looks like an angel as she swirls around to look at him.

She takes the flowers from him and puts it in an empty vase. It is the very vase she bought for him a few months ago. It is then that he notices the dark green bottle in her hand.

“Wine?” he asks and instinctively moves to the kitchen and produces two glasses.

She bit her lip lightly and smiles. She doesn’t even make a move to open the bottle. She places it gingerly on the table. “So,” she says as came towards him, “how’s Shirley?”

He hardens. So it is about this. He should have known. He takes off his tie uneasily. “She’s fine,” he says.

She laughs suddenly. “Don’t worry. I’m not mad at you two anymore, honest. How can I possibly be angry forever with my best friend and the man I used to love?”

He looks sheepishly at the floor. He remembers vividly the incident where she walks into the apartment without knocking and found him kissing her friend. He would have regretted his actions had it not been that their relationship was already cracking at the seams. He has always known she was not the right one for him. Shirley, on the other hand, is all he has always wanted and more.

“Come,” she says with a beguiling smile. “Let us be friends again. I miss you. Tell me what you have been doing the last few months.”
He scratched the back of his neck. “Well, nothing much. Been extremely busy at work.”

“Been working late again? What does Shirley say to that?”

“She’s been quite supportive.”

“I’m sure,” she says.

He looks sharply at her. She walks to the window where she has placed the flowers. She fingers the petals of the precious white wildflowers.
“They’re Brazillian,” she says in near whisper. “Aren’t they beautiful? I bought them when I was in Brazil for a month. They’re amazing, don’t you think? They survived the trip back here and even the customs.”

“What were you doing there in Brazil?”

“I thought I needed some time away from all these.” Her gaze falls slightly. “I went cruising down Amazon River and stayed with some of the tribesmen. There’s just so much I’ve learnt there. It was a magical place.”

“You didn’t even tell me you were going away. But then again, I hardly know what you’ve been up to these days.” He moves towards the wine bottle.

A grin comes to her face. “The flowers aren’t the only things I brought back from my trip,” she says as she reached for the bottle. Her cold fingers graze his slightly. He holds his breath.

He watches silently as she opens the bottle and pours the white liquid into the glasses. He reaches for one but she stops him. “Do you know,” she says, “that some of the jungle tribes mix curare in their wine for special ceremonies?”

“Curare?” He stares at her and then at the wine.

She steps up to him. “Yes, that’s what they use to tip their arrows to kill wild animals in the jungle.”

“Yes, I’ve heard of it.”

“And yet,” she continues, her voice dropping into a whisper, “they drink it in their wine.” Her steely eyes looks steadily into his, as if challenging him. Seducing him. “Would you dare to drink it if you knew that curare could kill you in an instant?”

She dips her finger into the wine and brings it to her mouth. Slowly, deliberately, she licks her red lips. He feels faint. Her perfume drifts sensually to his nostrils, almost suffocating him.

He lifts a glass and without hesitation, he takes a sip. It tastes bitter. He finds himself holding his breath for a second.

A smile creeps to her face. He stares into her coal black eyes. God, he could drown in their darkness! She is hauntingly beautiful. She comes forward and kisses him in the mouth. Wildly. Uninhibitedly. The effect of the alcohol surges strongly in his blood as he kisses her back. The kiss feels familiar and yet there is a new sense of something reckless that he has never realized she possesses. It is a taste of something dangerous and forbidden.

He withdraws suddenly. He can feel the metallic taste of blood in his mouth. She had bit his lip. She flings back her head and laughs. Reaching for her own glass, she smiles at him and drinks her wine.

He lifts his to his lips and downs it. The wine burns his throat as it goes down. She pours him another glass, which he takes gratefully. He needs the drink to steel his nerves. The bitter taste of the wine bites into his tongue, waking him from his dreamlike state.

“What are you doing here anyway?” he asks. Reality hits him and he sits down at the edge of his bed. He glances vaguely at the clock beside his bed. Surely, if he remembered correctly, he has a prior engagement.

She sips her wine delicately. She sits down opposite him and crosses her long legs. “Why?” she purrs. “Do you have somewhere else to go?”

His eyelids feel heavy. He brings the glass to his mouth again. But it is already empty. He has drained its last dredges. He feels giddy and the room begins to swirl.

“What’s the matter?” she asks as she comes over to him and runs her long fingernails down his cheek.

His head seems light and he strains to look up at her. What is happening? Suddenly the glass falls from his hand. His chest feels tight, as if gripped by an invisible vice. He drops to the bed, breathing heavily.
He sees her looking at him with childlike curiosity. Then she kisses him on the forehead. “You know,” she whispers to his ears, “curare is a curious poison. You can’t die by swallowing it, but it kills instantaneously if it gets directly into your bloodstream.”

She kisses him lightly on his lips, his blood staining her already red lips.
Then she says with cold irony, “This should teach you not to kiss a girl who’s not your girlfriend.”

Then she walks to the door and turns back to look at the room for the last time. A little grin is playing on her face. She steps out and closes the door behind her.
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Copyrights (c) Lee Su Ann 2008

Thursday, June 05, 2008

Love Me


I saw this drawing on the wall of a building near Pudu. It was a picture of a boy crouching with his face hidden underneath his arms, and the words "Love me" overhead. It's heartbreaking. Someone, whoever it was, was crying out for attention, for love.

So how do YOU cry out for love?

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

Slices of Heaven


Little drops of happiness can be found in the simplest things, such as


  • Composing a silly poem, ditty or letter to your loved ones on Valentine's Day

  • Chasing the sunset from a hilltop



  • Chasing the sunrise at a mountaintop

  • Seeing your words in print

  • Performing a stageplay for the Glory of the Almighty

  • Seeing the joy in the eyes of a woman who finally received a positive on her pregnancy test

  • Receiving a sincere hug from a friend

  • Giving a sincere hug to a friend who needs it

  • Embracing a child and making him/her laugh

  • Wishing Good Morning and Sweet Dreams to a loved one

"In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." -1 Thessalonians 5:18